Worship is something I enjoy doing, especially when I’m not
in the best mood. It always makes me feel like I just slapped the devil in his
face. Worship is my therapy when I’m sad, and even when I’m happy, it gives me
this peace and joy I can’t explain.
I remember worshipping and praying one day, and the Lord
said to me, “Whatever happens, always find your way back here” that
day, I felt new, and I felt loved. On this journey of faith, there is a lot the
Lord is teaching me, and I’m always excited to share the lessons.
You can’t get it wrong in the place of worship. When it gets
tough and you don’t know what to do, enter into the place of worship, submit to
His will and watch how He comes through for you.
These past months some songs have spoken to me in ways I’ve
never imagined. These songs are my go-to songs, and each time I worship, I have
my faith strengthened and renewed.
The songs are:
Nobody by Tim Godfrey ft Ntonzo Mbambo
Jireh by Maverick city &Elevation Music ft
Chandler Moore and Naomi Raine
You’re Gonna get the glory by Tasha Cobbs
One moment by Freke Umoh
Hymn Medley by Maveric city ft Chandler Moore
Victory belongs to Jesus by Ric Hassani ft
Called out music and Frank Edwards
Yah by Dunsin Oyekan
I’ll be here
Isaiah song by Maverick city ft Chandler Moore
Olorun Agbaye by Nathaniel Bassey ft Chandler
Moore and Oba
Click play and enjoy a time of worship
When listening to these songs, let your faith be activated,
key into the messages and watch how Papa comes to dine with you. Oh, don’t
forget to go into His presence with a pen and a jotter. He is always ready to
talk to you.
You can download each song by clicking the download icon by the side of each song
As a little girl, Mama gave me lectures and sermons
about you. She taught me about how important you are in everyone’s life. She
said you are the one people hold on to for survival a lot of times. She also
added that you had two siblings called Faith and Love, she said Love was the
eldest, but I needed all three of you to survive, I remembered that sermon, and
it became my mantra.
Growth happened, and the little girl became a
teenager, life came at me, and I was so scared, I was scared to trust you
because humans failed me and I felt you would too, but you did fail me, I held
on for so long, but nothing happened, they said it was going to be better, but
it wasn’t. Life dealt with me, and you didn’t save me, so I let go of you and
Throwing you away became my greatest regret, the
minute I kicked you out your rival took charge of my life, I can’t remember
asking him to, but he did, and it almost ruined me. Depression took over, all I
thought of was death, and I didn’t even know what to do so I resolved to tears
and pains, and I wished I didn’t run from you, nobody could save me.
Fear crippled my life, Uncle Faith’s rival, and life
wasn’t just worth living anymore. Still, in the middle of all of these, your
brother Love found me. He looked for me, did all he could to rescue me from
hurting myself. He came in a different package, I was so stubborn, yet he was
patient, he was so persistent yet gentle, and because depression was gradually
killing me, I succumbed to love, and my life received a revival.
Hope, I’m sorry I kicked you out, but I need you, I know Love will never leave me, but I have to keep working on my relationship with you and Faith, but it’s incredible to see that once I can work on my relationship with Love, you and Faith will be so natural. How I love your family.
I know it’s not going to be easy, even as a grown-up
lady I still get scared about tomorrow, I sometimes worry about getting things
right, I still get nervous I will mess things up and frustrate Love. Yet, Love
said there is nothing I can do to push him away. I cried when he said that, so
does that mean I have you and Faith for the rest of my life? That is such a
Life is always going to push me, challenges will come my way, friends will disappoint me, I will fight with my man, my parents, and siblings will get on my nerves, but I will choose you and your siblings over and over again, I will walk in Love, embrace you and keep Faith.
Hope, if there is one lesson the year 2020 taught me is that I need you to survive, you were my succour throughout the year.
I will remember Mama’s lecture because I can’t live
life without you. I can’t run my marriage without you because there will always
be challenges there, I can’t run my job without you because my boss will still
want more from me, I can’t run my relationship with my friends without you
because there will be issues, but I hold on to you.
With you and your siblings, life is worth living,
and we can go to bed knowing that today may be challenging, but tomorrow is
certainly going to better.
Thank you for being a constant support and strength!
I love you so much, please give my warm regards to Faith and Love, tell them they mean a lot to me, and one of these days I will write a note to them too.
The year 2020 tested me on so many levels, there were days I cried like a baby, and there were days filled with laughter, but each season taught me growth, perseverance, and God’s Love. I don’t know what this year brought for you but look at you, God kept you, and you survived!
Forgive me for taking a break. I know it has been a while but I can assure you that it is all for good. I have been learning, unlearning and relearning but thank you for sticking with me and cheering me on. You are more than amazing.
There was a time in my life when I made relationship my idol. I longed for closure. I irrationally hoped that a man would love me with all my baggage. I was not interested in making any attempt at self-development. All that mattered to me was being in a relationship. Hence, I became desperately obsessed.
I was told that God is the answer, so I intensified my prayers; in hopes that God would bring me a good man. Perhaps if I became a good Christian, I would attract a good man. This became my idol. I was desperately aching for a genuine relationship but I was the obstacle.
I had a lot of issues I needed to deal with. I had secrets I was not ready to share or come to terms with; rather, I expected a good man to show up like a knight in shining armour and fix my problems by the wave of his sword.
I was tired of making mistakes. I was tired of being broken and dejected. Coming to God meant I had to stop idolizing relationships and allow Him be my lover and best friend.
May I be completely honest with you???
Letting go was hard but I knew without a doubt, that God loves me. I had to come to the realization that I was idolizing relationships. I was overwhelmed with the need to be in a relationship that I had forgotten how to be single. I had forgotten how to live.
The day I handed over my relationship to God, I knew I had come to a place of rest. I was at peace with myself and my status. I became genuinely happy for my friends who were getting engaged or married.
Many of us have idolized relationships in our hearts. We are so obsessed about getting married that we do not care how it happens but hey, you need to relax. God wants us to know Him first. We expect our spouses to fix us but God is the perfect fixer.
Many of us need to come a place of being satisfied with God. When you understand that God is enough, you will be at rest. Life is not a journey you want to leave to chance, we live by faith every day.
“Make God the utmost delight and pleasure of your life, and He will provide for you what you desire the most.Give God the right to direct your life and as you trust Him along the way you will find He pulled it off perfectly!” (Psalm 37: 4-6) TPT.
I have come to love this scripture because each time I study it, I find the love of God being expressed. God wants the best for you. He wants you to be in a good relationship and have a good, very good life. Until we trust Him, we will keep taking wrong turns.
When you are single and in love with God, you will be at peace. When your friends are getting engaged or married, you would not be jealous or bitter but genuinely happy for them, knowing with assurance, that yours is on the way.
Many of us need to come to a place of intimacy and fellowship with God. When we are lost in Him, we can trust that He will grant our heart desires. God is the king of surprises. Give Him your all and watch Him come through for you.
There was a video I saw, which completely brought me to total surrender and is a great reminder that God is real. I hope this video ignites a fire in your Spirit.
I would also like to encourage you to watch the crazy faith series by Pastor Mike Todd on Youtube, your faith will be strengthened.
Writing for me is beyond a hobby. It gives me great pleasure and more so fulfilling when people send me feedback about how my writing has helped them. However, there were times when I did not feel like writing. What happens when the one major thing that makes me happy feels like a strange place?
These past few weeks have been quite challenging. I was dealing with a major writer’s block and not just that; nothing made sense to me. I felt like I was running on an empty tank and it became crazier when I couldn’t even pray.
The fact that God loves me was not in doubt but then, it felt like He was so far. I could feel Him all around but I needed more than just a feeling. I had a lot of questions to ask and I knew He had so much to say to me but I wasn’t ready to listen.
It’s in all of these I got to understand, that God surrounds us with the best people. While I was being so grumpy and angry, my significant other just decided to be so patient. He listened as I kept ranting. His presence is a deep assurance of God’s love.
If God could give me this man, then He surely loves me. Even in the midst of love and pampering, there was a vacuum that nobody could fill. There was a longing in my heart that needed satisfaction.
The journey felt so long and I was getting tired. The truth is, I felt like I was becoming invisible and because I had writer’s block I felt I was not functioning in purpose anymore but what I forgot was that God had to take me through a process and I must be willing to wait.
It wasn’t until I found my way back to the father; the one whose arms are always open wide to welcome me home in love, the one who would never give up on me. I cried my eyes out as I asked him to fill the longing in my heart, I asked him for strength because my own strength had failed.
I don’t know what your own story is, I don’t know the pains you are feeling right now. Yours might be a loss or a big failure and just like me you have been seeing God doing it for others and you are asking the same question “God, when?” “When will you answer me?”
“Be strong. Take courage. Do not be intimidated. Don’t give them a second thought because God, your God, is striding ahead of you. He’s right there with you. He won’t let you down; He won’t leave you.” (Deuteronomy 31:6) MSG.
Your waiting season is like being in the wilderness; it is not going to last forever. In the middle of the storm, God is right there with you. He has promised not to let you down and you can count on Him not to fail you.
When you decide to leave your challenges at the feet of the father, He will give you peace that passes all understanding. It was after I had cried out to the father that I found peace. I am at this phase of my life, where I am at peace in spite of all that is going on around me because I am certain that the father would always come through.
I listened to a sermon that helped my faith and strength. I believe it’s going to be of great help to you too. It is by Pastor Mike Todd. The title is Peace under Pressure.
Press play and listen
You are not alone and you will come out of this stronger and better.
“This is the confidence we have in
approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us.
15 And if we know that he hears us—whatever we
ask—we know that we have what we asked of him.” 1 John 5:14 -15 (NIV).
It was a Tuesday evening, Lagos traffic did no justice to my tiny body I was really tired and I just couldn’t wait to get home and rest. It was not even about the traffic, I was psychologically and mentally tired, as a matter of fact I felt so frustrated and somehow I mumbled the words “Dear God, we have some talking to do”
I got back home and had a conversation with
God, I have been trying to bottle up how I felt for a long while and somehow I
just assumed God would never understand because I couldn’t even put my emotions
into the right words and I had forgotten that God doesn’t need my eloquence but
all that matters to him is that I come just as I am.
I had gotten to the peak that evening and I knew if I don’t find a way to let out my emotions I would only be hurting myself the more so I got into my room that evening and had a conversation with my heavenly father and the interesting part was that I didn’t have the say the words the tears was enough and I could feel the warmth of his presence.
I felt real peace that evening and I knew
there was a shift. I might not have not gotten all the answers I needed but I
can’t trade that peace for anything!
God, are you even listening?
I don’t know what you are going through and I don’t what and where you are expecting the lord to come through for you but one thing is certain; if you can pray, He is ready to listen. There are some days where it feels as though God is far away because the challenges feel overwhelming but even on such days learn to rest in the arms of your loving father.
Prayer is not a one communication channel,
it works in both ways while you talk be patient to listen to instructions but
beyond that enjoy the fellowship and companionship of His presence. Don’t come
into his presence with a perfect heart, if you are heartbroken tell him how you
feel and you don’t have to say the perfect words.
The bible says in Hebrews 4: 15 “For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are–yet he did not sin” (NIV). Jesus became human and he felt all you are feeling, how do you think God felt at that point when He had to deny his only son on the cross? He must have felt a big loss and his heart so broken and have you also thought of how Jesus felt too when his dear father who has never denied him of anything turned his back on him, no wonder he had to cry “my father, my father why have you forsaken me” and all this happened because the father loves us deeply.
We have a high priest who understands how exactly we feel. The next time your heart is so heavy and you can’t even process how you feel you can silently whisper the words or even scream it out loud “Dear God, we need to talk” with that you invite Him and even if you can’t find the right words just tell him how you feel and exchange your worries in worship.