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GOD, WHEN?

 

Writing for me is beyond a hobby. It gives me great pleasure and more so fulfilling when people send me feedback about how my writing has helped them. However, there were times when I did not feel like writing. What happens when the one major thing that makes me happy feels like a strange place?

These past few weeks have been quite challenging. I was dealing with a major writer’s block and not just that; nothing made sense to me. I felt like I was running on an empty tank and it became crazier when I couldn’t even pray.

The fact that God loves me was not in doubt but then, it felt like He was so far. I could feel Him all around but I needed more than just a feeling. I had a lot of questions to ask and I knew He had so much to say to me but I wasn’t ready to listen.

It’s in all of these I got to understand, that God surrounds us with the best people. While I was being so grumpy and angry, my significant other just decided to be so patient. He listened as I kept ranting. His presence is a deep assurance of God’s love.

If God could give me this man, then He surely loves me. Even in the midst of love and pampering, there was a vacuum that nobody could fill. There was a longing in my heart that needed satisfaction.

The journey felt so long and I was getting tired. The truth is, I felt like I was becoming invisible and because I had writer’s block I felt I was not functioning in purpose anymore but what I forgot was that God had to take me through a process and I must be willing to wait.

It wasn’t until I found my way back to the father; the one whose arms are always open wide to welcome me home in love, the one who would never give up on me. I cried my eyes out as I asked him to fill the longing in my heart, I asked him for strength because my own strength had failed.

I don’t know what your own story is, I don’t know the pains you are feeling right now. Yours might be a loss or a big failure and just like me you have been seeing God doing it for others and you are asking the same question “God, when?” “When will you answer me?”

CONCLUSION

“Be strong. Take courage. Do not be intimidated. Don’t give them a second thought because God, your God, is striding ahead of you. He’s right there with you. He won’t let you down; He won’t leave you.” (Deuteronomy 31:6) MSG.

Your waiting season is like being in the wilderness; it is not going to last forever. In the middle of the storm, God is right there with you. He has promised not to let you down and you can count on Him not to fail you.

When you decide to leave your challenges at the feet of the father, He will give you peace that passes all understanding. It was after I had cried out to the father that I found peace. I am at this phase of my life, where I am at peace in spite of all that is going on around me because I am certain that the father would always come through.

I listened to a sermon that helped my faith and strength. I believe it’s going to be of great help to you too. It is by Pastor Mike Todd. The title is Peace under Pressure.

Press play and listen

You are not alone and you will come out of this stronger and better.

I love you!

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Your friend and sister,

Onome Omodara

DEAR GOD, WE NEED TO TALK


“This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. 15 And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him.” 1 John 5:14 -15 (NIV).

It was a Tuesday evening, Lagos traffic did no justice to my tiny body I was really tired and I just couldn’t wait to get home and rest. It was not even about the traffic, I was psychologically and mentally tired, as a matter of fact I felt so frustrated and somehow I mumbled the words “Dear God, we have some talking to do”

I got back home and had a conversation with God, I have been trying to bottle up how I felt for a long while and somehow I just assumed God would never understand because I couldn’t even put my emotions into the right words and I had forgotten that God doesn’t need my eloquence but all that matters to him is that I come just as I am.

I had gotten to the peak that evening and I knew if I don’t find a way to let out my emotions I would only be hurting myself the more so I got into my room that evening and had a conversation with my heavenly father and the interesting part was that I didn’t have the say the words the tears was enough and I could feel the warmth of his presence.

I felt real peace that evening and I knew there was a shift. I might not have not gotten all the answers I needed but I can’t trade that peace for anything!

Dear God, are you even listening?

I don’t know what you are going through and I don’t what and where you are expecting the lord to come through for you but one thing is certain; if you can pray, He is ready to listen. There are some days where it feels as though God is far away because the challenges feel overwhelming but even on such days learn to rest in the arms of your loving father.

Prayer is not a one communication channel, it works in both ways while you talk be patient to listen to instructions but beyond that enjoy the fellowship and companionship of His presence. Don’t come into his presence with a perfect heart, if you are heartbroken tell him how you feel and you don’t have to say the perfect words.

The bible says in Hebrews 4: 15 “For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are–yet he did not sin” (NIV). Jesus became human and he felt all you are feeling, how do you think God felt at that point when He had to deny his only son on the cross? He must have felt a big loss and his heart so broken and have you also thought of how Jesus felt too when his dear father who has never denied him of anything turned his back on him, no wonder he had to cry “my father, my father why have you forsaken me” and all this happened because the father loves us deeply.

We have a high priest who understands how exactly we feel. The next time your heart is so heavy and you can’t even process how you feel you can silently whisper the words or even scream it out loud “Dear God, we need to talk” with that you invite Him and even if you can’t find the right words just tell him how you feel and exchange your worries in worship.

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Enjoy His presence and watch him give you a new name.

You are deeply loved.

Your friend and sister,

Onome Omodara