“He isn’t here! He is risen from the dead, just as he said would happen. Come, see where his body was lying.” (Mathew 28:6) NLT
Life feels so hard, nothing is working and I just want to die.
Those were my words, I said that for so many years. I thought of suicide a lot of times but I never dared to try it, I was thirsty for affection and I desperately needed someone to love me. I cried myself to sleep so many nights and maybe no one loves me after all.
The church was somewhere I found myself because I had no choice, when I heard people share testimonies about God and how he spoke to them, I was jealous because I wanted what they had.
I read the bible every night because momma would ask if I had my quiet time, I enjoyed reading the stories other parts were boring as far as I was concerned. Where was this God who did all these things recorded in the bible? I had a lot of questions but who would answer them.
That was my story that was me. The one who didn’t deserve love and mercy, the one condemned to die. The devil reminded me of my pains but all Christ had to do was show me Calvary where he bled for me. He brought me freedom and grace.
Thank God the story did not end at Calvary, he was taken down to the tomb and on the third day, He resurrected!!!
I can’t contain my joy that he arose. He went to hell and fought for my freedom, he defeated death so that I won’t die, he defeated sicknesses and diseases that I might live in total health. He took the fall just for me.
It took me years to understand what love meant and when I did my life took a new turn. I could understand those testimonies I was jealous about because when you come in contact with the father of light you radiate his light.
Today, all you have to do is thank God that Jesus has risen!
Your salvation is eternal.
“I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth, you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33) NLT
I understand what pain means, I know what it means to desperately want approval but the truth is you have been looking for answers in the wrong places. Love has been knocking and all you have to do is open the door.
No one can love you the way Christ loves you. He paid the price for our freedom, he purchased us with His blood and gave us victory.
Let me end this article with the lyrics of my favourite hymn.
The strife is o’er, the battle done by Francis Pott
- The strife is o’er, the battle done;
The victory of life is won;
The song of triumph has begun:
- The pow’rs of death have done their worst;
But Christ their legions has dispersed;
Let shouts of holy joy outburst:
- The three sad days are quickly sped;
He rises glorious from the dead;
All glory to our risen Head:
- He closed the yawning gates of hell;
The bars from heav’n’s high portals fell;
Let hymns of praise His triumphs tell:
Culled from (https://library.timelesstruths.org/music/The_Strife_Is_Oer_the_Battle_Done/)
When you are searching for love, just look at Calvary!
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Thank you, family!!!!!!
You have my love.